Day Five 2019

WHITE RIBBON

BY MARGI ISAAC, FOUNDER MEMBER AND VOLUNTEER AT VOICES

I loved you…
I loved you…
And you told me that you loved me…
You won my heart little by little…
Leading me to believe your fairy story!

I loved you…
And you painted a picture within words…
Of growing old together happily…
Remembering the little things which made me happy…
Encouraging me to believe…
That you were happily in love with me!

I loved you…
And you placed a ring upon my finger…
Promising a love so true…
You knew all about my previously horrific abuse experiences…
At the hands of those meant to love me…
Smilingly you reassured me…
That you would always protect me…
And that I could trust you!

I loved you…
And so, I became your wife…
For a time, you seemed happy to be with me…
I cannot remember specifically…
When love turned to strife!

I loved you…
And continued to love you…
Year after year, after horrific year…
From the first blow to the last…
I loved you…
Though my heart, spirit, soul and life…
Were filled with fear!

I loved you…
And sometimes…
It seemed as though you still loved me…
As a Christian…
I was called to ‘forgive 70 x7’ …
And to forget’…
Quickly you began to use this Scripture…
Over me…
As part of your tyranny!

I loved you…
But now you are no longer within my daily life…
You affect it…
Indirectly…
Through your continued emotional manipulation…
Of our children sometimes …
But I am no longer your wife!